kecik ati

memang bila kita dah sayang,
memang semua benda yang dia buat,
mesti kita terasa...
susah sgt ker nk jumpa...
susah lah kot bagi dia..
bia lah...jika ni lah aku punya dugaan, aku terima..
tapi perlu ker nk bdolak dalih lagi ngan aku..
really hurt actually...
aku xpenah rasa weak sebagaimana yang aku rasa skrg ni..
but it's ok, god only know what will be the best for me, for us..
YAALLAH, jika dia betul untuk aku, dekatkanlah...
jika tidak, berilah aku kekuatan yang sepatutnya..

BERNAMA

mula2 aku pijak kat bernama ni...hmmm...bg aku nothing...sebab samer mcm opis 2 lain yg aku penah g..
actually tiada benda yg pelik pun bg aku kat sini...mula2 memang aku rasa mcm aku ni dok dalam bilik gelap ker,,,suasana keje yg xder bisiing2...ntah lah, maybe sebelum ni aku jenis yg terlalu kecoh kot..so now time utk jadi budak baik lah kan..teringat lak kat kawan2,,,hmmm...hari berganti hari, aku mcm ok jer ngan tempat ni...walaupun aku xberapa paham sebenarnya keje kitaorg ni mcm mana..yg aku tau, story siap, update kat web..tu jer..
pastu lama2 bawu aku tau memang tu lah keje kami,hmmm....aku pun hadap lah benda tu dengan hati yg terbuka tp sedikit senget lah kan..sebab bg aku xmencabar sgt..tp ok lah kan..sekuang2nya aku xpayah kua opis untuk cari story...stakat skali dua jer kan..tu perkara biasa lah kan..aku ingatkan ader event dan sebagainya..hmmm...xpelah...now, aku dah selamat menjalani semua urusan keje aku kat sini..alhamdulilah, smuanya ok..aku ucapkan terima kasih lah kan..tu jer aku mampu bg..
aku ni payah nk ckp aku sedih...tp tu lah hakikatnya kan...hmmmm...xpelah, malas nk citer panjang2...aku ni dok ngadap pc sorang2...smua org dah balik...tinggal beberapa orang je lagi yg ader..hmmm..tp aku masih disini....dimeja BUDAK PRAKTIKAL..aku bangga berada kat krusi n meja ni..mengajar aku byk benda...yg orang lain xkan paham..
satu cabaran besar sedang menanti aku kat luar sana...aku berharap aku mampu hadapi semua dugaan ni...walaupun aku tau, aku ni badan jer besar tapi hati kecik...hmmmm...sabaer je lah kan...tunggu kul 7 jap g bawu aku nk balik....

report praktikal

setelah hampir 4 bulan aku ber-praktikal kat BERNAMA...akhirnya aku sedang mengira minggu2 terakhir aku sebagai seorang pelajar degree...hmmm....bukan senang aku nk habiskan semua ni...pelbagai dugaan terpaksa aku hadapi..terutamanya dlm myiapkan tugasan dan sebagainya..betul lah kata org, degree merupakan level yg paling payah antara diploma, master n PHD..hmmm...hope aku dpt siapkan smpai PHD lah kan..tu harapan smua org tu..hmm...but now, looking for praktikal report yg sedang aku buat sekarang..hmmm...agak bagsu jugak sebab aku dah dapat awal2 lagi semua ni...guideline pun senang jer...so now, kena buat lah yer...jgn maian2 aisya fatihah...seminggu jer ag nk siapkan ni...alhamdulilah , yg lain smua dah siap..cuma tunggu yg mukadimah jer blum ag..

keliru

kadang-kadang tak semua benda yang kita lakukan dalam hidup ini sesuatu yg kita nk lakukan,,kadang-kadang semua ni sebab terpaksa..hmmm..tu lah yg sedang aku alami skrg...xleh nk citer kat org...org tak kan paham...hanya kunang-kunang jer tau mcm mana aku berhadapan dgn smua ni...hmmm...aku xsuka perasaan mcm ni...aku sgt xsuka...dihimpit dgn sesuatu yg xpasti..

one. only and once..

You've been on my mind 
I grow fonder every day 
Lose myself in time 
Just thinking of your face 

God only knows 
Why it's taken me so long 
To let my doubts go 
You're the only one that I want 

I don't know why I'm scared 
I've been here before 
Every feeling, every word 
I've imagined it all 
You'll never know, if you never try 
To forgive your past, and simply be mine 

I dare you to let me be, your 
Your one and only 
Promise I'm worth it 
To hold in your arms 
So come on 
And give me a chance 
To prove I am the one who can 
Walk that mile 
Until the end starts 

If I've been on your mind 
You hang on every word I say 
Lose yourself in time 
At the mention of my name 

Will I ever know 
How it feels to hold you close 
And have you tell me 
Whichever road I choose you'll go 

I don't know why I'm scared 
Cos I've been here before 
Every feeling every word 
I've imagined it all 
You'll never know 
If you never try 
To forgive your past 
And simply be mine 

I dare you to let me be your 
Your one and only 
I promise I'm worth it 
To hold in your arms 
So come on 
And give me a chance 
To prove I am the one who can 
Walk that mile 
Until the end starts 

play with the fire...u will know the answer...

I let it fall, my heart, And as it fell you rose claim it. 
It was dark and I was over, Until you kissed my lips 
and you saved me
My hands they're strong, but my knees 
were far too weak,
To stand in your arms without falling to your feet, 
But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew. 
All the things you say that were never true, never true, 
And the games you play, you would always win, always win. 
But I set fire to the rain, 
Watched it pour as I touched your face, 
Let it burn while I cry, Cause
I heard it screaming out your name, your name!
When I lay with you I could stay there,Close my eyes, 
feel you're here forever, 
You and me together, nothing is better!
Cause there's a side to you that I never, never knew,
All the things you say they 
were never true, never true,
And the games you play, you 
would always win, always win.

someone....like you??

I heard that you’re settled down,
That you found a girl and you’re married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you,

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain’t like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it,

I had hoped you’d see my face,
And that you’d be reminded that for me it isn’t over,

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don’t forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
“Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,”

Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,

Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it,
I had hoped you’d see my face,
And that you’d be reminded that for me it isn’t over,